A Better Place…

Yesterday, I sat at my laptop whilst filling out an application form for a voluntary position, and a rather interesting thought had occurred to me, how far have I come since last year?

I realized that I came very far! Let’s just say that 2012 was a bad year. The only good things that happened was my trip to India (there I felt alive, I was loved and didn’t feel alone and generally I was happy and content inside myself), creating this blog (by the way it will be 1 year on 19th June, I believe), and the few outings I had with friends. It was last year I saw the musical ‘War Horse’ on my friends birthday and he invited my mother to come along too. That was the only good stuff that happened.

The rest of the time had been spent feeling down and depressed because of my ex-job, how they treated me and said horrible things to me or behind my back. They stopped being nice to me after they found out that I was dyslexic. They started to assume I was dumb and stupid, they basically stopped my progression in the company.

I have to say that quitting that job was the best move I could have made! I feel happier within myself. The negativity is slowly working its way out of my system, (I mean it is still there, but it is silent, maybe it is waiting for the right time to grip hold of me again), but still I’m not thinking about that anymore.

Right now, I feel that I am ready to embrace the working world once more. Considering my confidence and self-esteem took a big collapse, I’ve decided that it is better to start at a voluntary position, gain the skills of a good worker and boost up my confidence and self-esteem once again.

So yesterday I spent most of my morning filling out the application. The only bits left to do is the references sections and in my employment section think of reasons for leaving my previous employment.

I have no idea what reason to put, I can’t say that I left because they were treating me badly, saying horrible and mean things about me and thinking I’m dumb and stupid because I am dyslexic, can I? So yes, it is something I need to think about. After that I just need to submit it and wish for the best!

One thing I have learned though, to not to mention my small weakness ever again.

I am in a better place, everything is turning back to beautiful colours again. My writing is improving (it is what I feel, only you, my readers can tell me how far I have improved or not :)) and generally I am feeling great! So here is to a good future ahead!

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10 responses to “A Better Place…

  1. Ugh 2012 was a lost year for me too. So far 2013 is looking better though. I plan to keep working at it and hopefully its going to be a rockin good year.

    Just a thought, but you could put something like this for why you left your previous job: It was not an environment that promoted growth. I am looking to better myself and grow within the company to become the greatest asset possible because of my skills doing (xyz)

    And seriously, those people are stupid at your old job. They just sound like high school bullies who have nothing better to do than put people down to make themselves feel important.

    • Hi!
      How are you?
      Long time no speak! I have missed you, friend 🙂
      Yeah 2013 seems really rockin year and I hope that it stays like that all year round for you, me and everyone else! I think odd numbered years are always better lol.

      Thank you for the suggestion! I think that is much better than what I am coming out with hehe. Thanks!
      You still working with Microsoft right? There are bound to be many opportunities to progress!

      So how have you been? I haven’t seen you around much on my reader! How are your stories coming along? 🙂

  2. I’m glad things are looking up for you, and it sounds like it’s really good you left that job. What a terrible atmosphere to work in.
    This past year has shown a lot of improvements for me too. My blog has been a big boost to my goals of writing.
    I hope 2013 is an even better year you, my friend. 🙂

    • Yeah I’m actually really really happy I took that step to quit that job.
      I have read your most recent post about how many stories you have to write and they are from your blog, that shows exactly how much of a big boost the blog has to your writing goals. I wish you good luck that you can complete them 🙂
      Do you have a set time you want to complete them by?
      I also hope that 2013 is better for you too 🙂

      • You know it is the same with me as well. If I try to stick to a schedule, I either get too hooked on one project and go over the time I give for it, or I just get distracted and don’t work.

        So I do my blog stories during the weekdays and do my novels on the weekend. That is as far as it would go for schedules for me hehe.

  3. It’s good to hear that things are looking up this year. I hope that 2013 finds you hopeful and healthy 🙂

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